I was almost 8 months pregnant when I first got in contact with Christian Family Services. I just got out of a bad and abusive relationship and was trying to get my life back on track after a long road. I wasn’t too sure or even fond of the idea of giving my baby girl up for adoption, but in the back of my mind, I knew that I wasn’t physically capable of being the parent she would need. I knew that it would be up to me to do everything and care for her and be who she needed me to be at the time, when her father wasn’t anywhere around, and I didn’t want him to be after everything that happened between us. I had mixed feelings about being pregnant and wasn’t really sure what to do or who to turn to. I was about to have her in a little over 5 weeks and didn’t have a single item for her.
I first got in contact with them by a phone call and the lady on the other end of the line was really nice and seemed to give me a lot more insight on the situation. She came to meet with me the next day, as I just cried and cried, still not sure on what to do or which way to turn. She set another appointment to meet with me later in the week and brought over books of families who couldn’t have children of their own and wanted to start a family. Out of all books I read about the families, one in particular stuck out at me and I knew at that moment that this family would be able to give the child I was about to have a more fulfilled life than I was able to at that moment. I ended up meeting the family from the book and they were more than what I thought they were going to be. I let them in the room, watching everything as she arrived, and wanted to make it really special for them and I did just that.
The adoptive parents and I have a really good relationship to this day and surprisingly, adoption really is an incredible thing to transpire. I still see her about once a month or so and we text on a weekly basis. As I used to be at an all time low part in my life, I started losing a lot of any hope or faith that I had left, but if it wasn’t for everything that has been happening since I started the adoption process, I wouldn’t have restored my faith the way it has been.
I am finally getting my life back to where it should have been a long time ago. I have a full time job, taking care of my priorities, have about a year left in school until I graduate, and the relationship I have with my parents now is truly incredible. A year ago, I never would have thought my life would be the way it is today, and without Christian Family Services, between the counseling I am still in need of and having somebody to talk to when it feels like I don’t have anybody else, I really don’t know where I would be today.
